Baby News

As many of you now know, we have been on a long journey to have a family. That journey took another step forward about six weeks ago when we got a call from DCF that we had been picked to bring home a baby boy who was only a week old. Since then life has been all sorts of things.

Right now little dude is very much foster care. He has visitation with both birth parents and we have met both of them. Some things are going well and some things are really terrifying and frustrating. We can't share most details online because little dude is not legally our child and his parents have privacy rights. (We can't post his name or pictures) We can say that he is a great baby who is eating and sleeping like a champ, has a full head of hair and is starting to smile, which is the best. We want to adopt him, but we won't know if that will be possible for a while. Maybe a year, maybe more. We don't quite know yet how this is affecting our marriage...mostly because a newborn doesn't let you have a whole lot of alone time :) So we thought we'd just share from each of us a brief summary of how we're doing and what we're each feeling.

Melissa:


All throughout this process I have been running as a way to deal with my stress and frustration. This white girl slaps on some New Balance shoes, blares angry rap music and pounds the pavement. I've been running since high school and frankly I'm not that good. I don't run that fast or long, I just kind of run. But it clears my head and I really love it.

Bringing little guy home has been joyful, but hard. It hurts knowing we don't have any control over this situation and that he could be plucked right back out of our arms. I thought it would feel better getting to this point, but it doesn't. It's actually harder. As I was running the other day this Bible verse came to mind:

Hebrews 12:1 NIV "Therefore since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us."

God was smart when He describes life like a race. When you are running you have many flat areas and many hills to go up and down. The key to making it to the end of a run is pace and breath. You control your lungs and you set an even pace. The thing is, hills are hard. You push yourself to make it to the top of a hill. When you get there and start to go down the other side it feels like it's time to lengthen your stride and take huge gulps of air. But if you do this you will tire out. Gravity is pulling you down the hill and if you allow your pace to quicken and breath to change you will actually expend more energy and have a harder time re-setting your pace at the bottom. The next hill will be harder to climb.

That's what I feel like now. Bringing little dude home was the top of a long, difficult hill that took a lot of energy and faith to run up. But now I must keep my pace even and breath steady....because going down the hill and running onward through whatever will come is going to be even harder. I can't control my life, I can just run the race that God has set before me. He didn't promise it would all be flat ground. He didn't promise my heart would never be broken. But He did promise that He would run with me and that He would take care of me. As I work on being a good foster mom, I'm taking moments to allow my fear of losing little dude to be real and re-steady my breath. To breathe in the truth that I can trust my Lord. God loves little dude and He loves me. I don't know what is going to happen, so I'm just going to breathe right now and keep as steady of a pace as I can manage. And see what happens.

Jake:


My emotions mirror much of what Melissa shared above. The last six weeks have been awesome and difficult, exciting and terrifying all mixed together. Little dude is so much fun, and a really good baby so we could not be more blessed with him. But it has been very difficult knowing he leave us to be with a relative or back with the birth parents. Every time my cell phone rings and it's a local call, my heart pauses. The same thing happens any time my iPhone chimes indicating a new email in our inbox. There have been two main things that have been helping curb my anxiety.

First, as we were talking with some friends recently, Melissa observed that the idea of control over our lives is a complete delusion and that really struck a chord with me. Yes, our little dude could be taken away from us any moment but isn't it the same with everything else in our lives? We can lose jobs, the stock market can crash, cancer can hit us out of nowhere, or houses can be hit by tornados...just to name a few things. This lack of control is very evident in the book of Job! Yet one of my favorite verses in Job is 1:21: "The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord." God is teaching me how to have that kind of an attitude. Everything I have today is a blessing and I should enjoy it and prioritize it because it might not be here tomorrow.

The second thing I am sooo thankful for has been all the reminders that God is good. He has used the radio multiple times to speak to Melissa and I, oddly enough. We get in the car and the radio just happens to be on an advertisement or song that uses little dude's name, nickname or be all about adoption. We've had so many people sending us notes that they are praying for us. This weekend, I was in Louisville, KY for a conference and ended up in three separate conversations with people who were doing foster care, two of which want to adopt. I don't think I have ever really meet someone doing foster care in the first 28 years of my life...now I find three in one weekend.

God really is good despite the situations we find ourselves in. His goodness is not based on our external surroundings which can change at a moment's notice. If you find yourself in the midst of difficult things - fertility, marriage issues, family struggles, etc. we want to remind you to just takes things one day at a time and find the things you can be thankful for in each moment. Don't waste your time trying to control outcomes, but trust in God that He is in control and knows what's best for you and your family. And ask Him for encouragement to make it through and then keep a watchful eye because God will come through for you and send you exactly what you need.

As always we covet and treasure prayers. We'd love to know that people are praying for us to be able to adopt little dude. Thank you so much!!

Jake and Melissa

How Old Should You Be To Marry

After a little bit of a writing hiatus as we have been adjusting to life with a baby at home, we just had a new piece go up on RelevantMagazine.com discussing how old is the appropriate age to get married. You can check it out here:

http://www.relevantmagazine.com/life/relationship/features/28441-how-old-should-you-be-to-marry

We'll have a blog coming soon...

Jake and Melissa

Guest Blogger

Hey All! This week I had the amazing opportunity to be a guest blogger for a web-site/blog called Still The Sea.

Their mission statement is : Still the Sea is retail destination offering products for inspired living, and an online community dedicated to the journey of faith. We hope to offer products and content that refresh, inspire, and help you to lead lives filled with beauty, truth and love.

Check out my blog about unwanted facial hair!!

http://stillthesea.com/2012/02/the-beauty-of-unwanted-facial-hair/

Taming the Ministry Tongue

Here is a new piece on YouthMinistry.com that we did about how much work we should bring home with us. The article is called "Taming the Ministry Tongue." As it applies to Jake's job of ministry, there are definitely nuggets of truth that can apply across the board.

Enjoy!

Jake and Melissa

Kids on Marriage

This was too cute not to share. You can find it on www.iwastesomuchtime.com and the specific link is at the bottom of the page. Ah, the wisdom of the young!



Link: http://iwastesomuchtime.com/on/?i=22767

Below the Surface

You know the fights that you and your spouse have, the ones that seem to come up over and over again?

The one about your husband playing too many video games.

Or the one about your wife spending too much money on shoes.

Or the knack your spouse has for avoiding...
...the pile of dirty dishes in the sink.
...the bed needing to be made.
...putting things away instead of piling them on the dresser.

Or the one about there not being enough...
...sex.
...quality time.
...affirmation.
...little notes like when we were dating.

Every couple has those fights that just seem to repeat over and over again. One spouse just doesn't understand why the other can't just listen to them and do what they are asking. The other feels like they can't do anything right. One is defensive, the other is aggressive. Plans are made, compromises are put in place but yet the behaviors seems to always drift back to the way they were before. Before you know it you feel like your marriage is caught in a vicious cycle that you just don't know how to get out of.

What's the problem? Why can't we seem to resolve these issues? Is it time to throw in the towel?

Melis and I have been reading this book lately called Hold Me Tight by Dr. Sue Johnson and it really tackles the above questions head on. (It has definitely jumped into our top 5 list of marriage books!) The answer has been surprising but at the same time almost embarrassingly easy.

So much marriage counseling tends to get caught up in behavior management. We're taught active listening. We're explained formulas that are supposed to make our relationships better. We're taught how to compromise and how to balance our schedules.

All of these things are great tools to have for our marriages but yet sometimes they don't get to the real depth of the issue at hand. Because the fight about the Xbox really isn't actually about the Xbox. The one about the shoes isn't about the shoes. It's not about the piles or the dishes or the amount of quality time.

Instead, when we really take the time to understand ourselves and what's going on in a deeper, more emotional level we discover the fights are about something else. They are about connection...or more specifically a lack there of. The defensiveness isn't actually a means to protect yourself, instead it's an attempt to deescalate a situation and protect your relationship. Same goes for aggression...it's an attempt to connect, be heard and engage.

It's funny because I teach this to parents all the time. In a parent program called Real World Parents, there is this slide showing that trying to change your kids behavior is only the tip of the iceberg. Below the surface is a whole set of world views about how the world works. And even deeper below that there is a revelation about God, the self and the role of other people in your life. If you truly want to change someone's behavior, you have to take the time to really get beneath the surface and understand how they are seeing the world, and what is shaping that worldview. This works in the exact same way when it comes to marriage and connection.

When there is an issue or a fight, it is so important to take the time to really understand the deeper issues and emotions. Because that is really what the fight is about anyways. Really it's stupid to fight about dishes. Why the heck would anyone waste an hour arguing about dishes. That fight is really about feeling unappreciated, taken advantage of or not listened to. Maybe it's a deeper expectation that came from the way you watched your parents live out their marriage...or not live out their marriage.

This week, when you face fights or points of contention with your spouse, take a moment and pause in your argument. Take a moment to understand what is really going on inside yourself. What are the emotions and feelings stirring underneath? What are you really upset and hurt about? Does the hurt even come from your spouse, or does it come from another point in your life?

Then take a moment and ask the same questions about where your spouse is coming from. What do you think they are coming from? What do you think they are feeling? What in their past could be seeping into the present?

Then take time to just sit and talk. Share your heart and learn more about who your spouse is. Talk about your feelings and be real with one another. Not only will you develop a deeper connection with your spouse, but you'll also eventually eliminate the nagging arguments about dumb things like dishes.

Jake

Understanding What You're Worth

We just had a new article go up on YouthMinistry.com that deals with navigating the pressures of marital finances and youth ministry. You can check it out here if you are interested: http://bit.ly/rBQE11

Jake and Melissa

Thanksmas

So I was scrolling through Facebook the other day. Facebook is a great procrastination tool. It's mind-numbing to take a quick look at the status feed and see what people are up to isn't it?

There is a lot of Christmas shopping and preparation going on, per usual. But one FB post in particular caught my eye. A group of people I went to high school with posted pictures of themselves gathering for something called "Thanksmas." I don't know exactly what Thanksmas is for them, but the pictures showed the group holding hands, heads seemingly bent in prayer.

"How awesome is that?!" I thought. People this time of year tend to glaze over Thanksgiving in favor of Black Friday and Cyber Monday craziness. In fact, November and December seem to ever increasingly glide by in a haze of desire and materialism.

Christmas seems to bring out the "I want" in most of us. Giving gifts isn't bad at all, but we should be giving gifts with a thankful heart. We celebrate Christmas because of the incredible gift of eternal life that Jesus has given to us.

I love the idea of having a Thanksmas, where instead of focusing on all the things we want, we share with joy all the things we have already been given. It's a challenge for me to find contentment with many situations in my life, especially during the holidays. Everyone else always seems to have more money, more status, more success and just a seemingly more wonderful life than my own. But if I truly entered into the spirit of Christmas, I would realize all the amazing things I can be thankful for.

I really am blessed on so many levels and that is what Christmas should be about. So....

Merry Thanksmas everyone!!

Deciding What To Give

It's Christmas season and with all the talk of spending flying around we thought it would be great to talk more about finances and giving/tithing in particular.

For many couples deciding what and how to give is difficult, especially in the midst of a struggling economy. This issue is also affected by the different family backgrounds of you and your spouse. It can be quite frustrating when the two of you have different opinions about giving.

What makes this conversation a thousand times more difficult is that there are varied interpretations of what Biblical giving should look like. Even on our last blog post about building a budget, two of the comments were specifically about this issue and what the Bible calls the tithe.

The basic understanding of the tithe comes out of the Jewish Scriptures and is understood as giving 10% of your income to the church. After this basic explination though, there are still many questions:

• Does the 10% apply to our income before or after taxes? 
• Do you have to give the 10% to a local church or can you give it to a mission agency or non-profit organization? 
• What about if you are struggling financially, can you give less than 10%? 
• What about people who are extremely wealthy and 10% is like pocket change to them? Are they obligated to give more? 
• What do you do if you want to “obey the Bible” and give 10% of your income but your spouse doesn’t agree with your theological understanding about giving and isn’t comfortable giving that much? 
• What about gifts, bonuses or other unexpected checks? Do you have to tithe on those too? 

Perhaps some of these questions have come up in your marriage or relationship and the resulting disagreements have really taken the joy out of giving. How do you decide where to start and what is the right amount for your family to give?

1) As you guys start conversations about giving don’t begin with the tithe debate. Getting caught up in a conversation (or argument) about “10%”  actually misses two very important aspects of giving that supersede the conversation about a specific amount.

First, ask why we the two of you should give in the first place. Sadly, it seems more and more people are choosing not to give. Barna Group, a Christian research organization, has reported fairly consistently over the last few years that giving is on the decline. (See their most recent stats here). In our opinion, failure to give anything as a Christian in many cases points to a spiritual immaturity that really does as much harm to ourselves as it does to the people who we are neglecting to help.

The whole reason it is even possible to have a relationship with God is because God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit gave. As Christ’s followers, we are called to follow in His footsteps. Jesus’ disciples completely understood this as they started the church in the book of Acts. Read through the first few chapters and see how many references there are to the early Christians giving, sharing and helping others out. Think about James 1:27, “Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress.” The only way we do carry this out is by giving!

Second, the other thing we need to keep in mind is that God doesn’t want 10% of our finances; He wants 100%. The money that we are blessed with is a gift from God – along with the gifts, skills and talents He has given each of us to earn said finances. We have the responsibility to be good stewards with all – not just 10% - of what God has given us. Consider the widow that Jesus affirms in Luke 21:1-4 who gave “all she had to live on.” As you discuss giving, the conversation must be broadened to not just focus on how much God wants us to give but instead to ask the question, “How does God want us to spend every dime we make?”

2) With those two big issues in mind, it is now appropriate to start talking specific amounts. When it comes to this we don’t think there is a “correct” answer or percentage but instead echo Paul’s words to the church in Corinth:

“Remember this: Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. Each of you should give what you have decided in your heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.” (2 Corinthians 9:6-8)

A couple of points about this passage:

First, giving in this passage isn’t about meeting any particular percentage. It’s about the heart and the motives of the giver. Spend time talking, praying, searching Scripture and reading books about how you and your spouse should use your income, including giving, make a decision and just go for it. Giving 10% is a fantastic benchmark to aim for but don’t get legalistic about it nor use it as a reason to not give more because “you’re giving the amount God wants.”

Second, regularly challenge yourselves to give more. We try to evaluate what we give every 6 to 12 months. We also challenge ourselves with this whenever we get an extra freelance job, gift or bonus. Compared to the rest of the world, those of us who live in the West are very well off and we have more to spare than we often admit. (For specifics, check this calculator out: http://www.givingwhatwecan.org/resources/how-rich-you-are.php.)

We have found that this passage definitely rings true and the more we give, the more we reap! This isn’t always a return in a dollar amount but in the joy of loving other people, growing in our faith and a shift in our priorities from our stuff and ourselves to God and others.

-Jake

The Money Series:
Part 1: Starting the Money Conversation
Part 2: Building a Budget
Part 3: Deciding What to Give (you're reading it)
Part 4: Do We Really Need That: Understanding Needs vs. Wants (Coming soon)
Part 5: Cutting Corners: Tips for Tight Budgets (Coming soon)

Ear Plugs: A Lesson In Forbearance

"Since God chose you to be the holy people He loves, you must clothe yourselves with tenderhearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. Make allowance for each other's faults and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others." Colossians 3:12-13 NLT

There is a man living in the apartment complex across from our house who gets on my very last nerve. Every day, sometimes twice a day if I'm lucky, he takes his massive Rottweiler on an achingly slow walk by our property. Not only do I find large mounds of dog droppings in front of our mailbox on a daily basis, but without fail this man spends the entire walk yelling at the top of his lungs into a cell phone.

The yelling is in Spanish, so it helps that I don't know exactly what he's saying. But, in addition to the ear-splitting volume, his voice has the highest pitch I've ever encountered in a male human being. It's like a munchkin from Oz. A ten year-old girl munchkin.

And he has bright blond hair. For some odd reason this offends me the most.

Literally everything about this fellow and his walks makes me want to tear my eyes out. I can not fathom why he needs to yell so loudly and why this must be done in front of my house for fifteen minutes every day. I'll admit one time (it was dark) I lost my cool and shouted, "Shut up!" out the window. It was not my best moment, nor did it bother him in the least. He continues to walk-shout with carefree abandon.

Yesterday, as I was seething in frustration about his lack of respect for people with ears, I felt God whisper to me the above verse from Colossians. It convicted my heart. (I must note though, our God is a God of whispers. He understands appropriate noise levels and I love Him for it.)

How many times do I let the annoying things other people do eat away at my mind, heart, and patience when God is calling me to bear with them? It's just not worth it to let my decibel-y challenged neighbor get to me the way he does. In the whole scheme of things does it truly matter if he yells? I need to let him yell and let it go.

This is harder to accomplish in my marriage, this bearing with one another and allowing for each other's faults. My husband's faults offend and hurt me on a very deep level. My instincts tell me to latch onto every failing and allow resentment and hurt to fester unchecked. It can be satisfying to give into this predisposition, but ultimately it creates bitterness and division.

I'm not suggesting husbands and wives forgo accountability or avoid conflict, but I know my marriage would be more peaceful, loving, and supportive if we both were more adept at bearing with and forgiving one another.

Voltaire says, "We are all full of weakness and errors; let us mutually pardon each other our follies."

I am convicted of my need to mature in the area of forbearance with Christ's help and guidance. With both small annoyances and more serious offenses, I should be trying harder to let things go.

I also need to stick in some ear plugs.